corrinesbell | 25. Expectations

I hope everyone's doing okay. If this is like all the other 'experiments,' we should be out of danger soon. ...As out of danger as we ever are, anyway. It's a little worrying that the hunter hasn't shown ~~him~~ itself much lately...but I guess we should probably be thankful for that, huh?

Caesar? Lute? You guys doing okay? How about you, Al? I haven't seen you in a while.

...I...I didn't know it'd be this bad. Maybe I never considered anyone actually dying on our journey, either. ...Even though some of us came pretty close sometimes. Really close. But seeing...with Colette gone, and seeing...them, this way... And it doesn't help that I'm next to useless because of the Malnosso, either.

...That's a lie, isn't it? It isn't because of them, not entirely. It's got to be partially my fault, too. ...Damn it, I thought I was supposed to be able to face this! Didn't I learn that already? That there's no point in constantly being scared of the past? But it's not making any difference...

Like I said, anytime you're...not occupied, and once it's safe to go outside again, I'll gladly...talk about it. If you still think it'd be useful, anyway.

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Thanks, I'm glad you have such a high opinion of me.

...And I am not suicidal. Quit accusing me of that.

Aren't you? To be so arrogant as to think that you can protect everyone? To think that you can change the world, or someone's fate? To think that you have to the power to fight something that outclasses you in every possible respect? What's more, to tempt fate on a regular basis?

That, dear Sheena, is the greatest arrogance that exists.

No, actually. That's life. ...Or it was life, basically, before I got here. It sounds pretty...idealistic, but yeah, you can change the world, or someone's fate.

So call me arrogant. I don't really care. But there's a line between arrogant and just plain stupid and I usually try not to cross it.

And merely because your situation changes, your will to do the impossible fades in the blink of an eye, becoming expectation? Because nothing bad has happened in your joyful little world, and you can afford to be as suicidal as you want there, you have the right to feel depressed for failure?
Disgusting, really.

I don't know what kind of world you lived in, Itsuki, but plenty of bad stuff happened in mine. ...I know what the price of being stupid is, okay?

Quit provoking me. I don't have the energy.

Clearly, nothing bad enough happened to you if you can let something like this make you lose that flare which so often pushes you into a suicidal action, reversing that energy onto yourself in terms of blame.

As for Earth... I believe the worst incident I know of is when 300,000 people died in the blink of an eye.

I'm not talking to you about the bad stuff in my world. I'm not.

First you accuse me of being suicidal, and then you criticize me because I'm not?

~~And you didn't cause those deaths.~~

Yes. I do. Your suicidalness is perhaps your most charming trait.

Yeah, right. Sure. Fine.

...You've said that before. About...about doing impossible things.

Correct. Doing the impossible is generally a worthwhile, if taxing, venture.

...You really think it can be done? Here?

Of course not. What's impossible is impossible. I think what's depressing is that you lost faith in that chance of doing what can't be done somewhere along the line.

...I don't think we ever stopped to consider that stuff couldn't be done. Even...even if I thought I couldn't do it, someone else always did.

No. There are plenty of things that no one can do. That's why it's so fun when you do it.

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