Appointments 2.0

[corrinesbell]

Date, type of post, status.

[Dec. 21, action]
[April 14, written, filtered]

Comments

April 16th - action;

[corrinesbell]

I hate to say it, but you're probably right about that one, mostly. It doesn't want anybody to be happy. And sometimes it takes a long time to find out how to be happy anyway.

[Sometimes you spend weeks just plain not happy.]

But...that's what we're here for. The people that actually care about you, even when other people are being idiot jerks.

April 16th - action;

[ex_tessen852]

I hate that I'm making people worry about me though. I don't want them to be thinking about me when there are more important things going on.

April 16th - action;

[corrinesbell]

That's just it. You are the important things going on. People worry because you're important.

April 16th - action;

[ex_tessen852]

I don't feel like I am right now.

April 16th - action;

[corrinesbell]

And when that happens, that's when we've gotta tell you about it. [Which is why Sheena is telling her. It's a nice neat circular belief, here.] It's okay that you're unhappy and upset and really, really mad about all of it and it'd be worse if you weren't after everything that happened and what he said to you. But it's not okay to hide it because you think...I dunno, that your friends aren't gonna wanna deal with you or won't care enough or something.

[That was something of a verbal flood but it is, at last, a subject in which she has years of experience.]

April 16th - action;

[ex_tessen852]

It's not just that though. I... I don't want to say anything bad about Sokka. I don't want it to seem like I'm turning people against him. Yeah, he's an asshole, but if I warn people, they'll only think I'm being a bitchy ex-girlfriend.

April 16th - action;

[corrinesbell]

But he's treating you badly, Suki. You're not just making stuff up because you're mad.

April 16th - action;

[ex_tessen852]

I'm scared it's only me that sees it.

April 16th - action;

[corrinesbell]

Anybody that knows him and has talked to him recently is gonna see it. The people you used to live with - don't you think it's affect them too, with him acting like a total idiot? Maybe they know something more about it.

April 16th - action;

[ex_tessen852]

Maybe...

I'm just not sure I can face them yet. Aang wanted Sokka and I to be friends again, but I don't know.

April 16th - action;

[corrinesbell]

Did he think it was just gonna happen overnight, or something? [She sounds incredulous - at Aang, not at Suki.] You've got time and you've gotta take it. You don't have to "face" them, because it's not like you did some kinda terrible thing to face them with.

They'll get it. Pretty sure they want you to be happy even if it means you take a break.

April 16th - action;

[ex_tessen852]

I don't know. But now I know I want nothing to do with Sokka... ever. I'm done. I'm done with all of this. Done with giving him chances. Done with trying to make things work. Just done.

April 16th - action;

[corrinesbell]

Okay. [That works for her. Maybe Suki won't be as stressed and angry and upset, then.] But only if you also promise you'll try not to go around being mad about him even though he's not here. There's better stuff to think about all day.

April 16th - action;

[ex_tessen852]

Spirits. I hope you're right.

I don't know how well I'm going to do though.

April 16th - action;

[corrinesbell]

We'll practice.

[It's not good for her to be like this all the time. So even though she said that as partially a joke...maybe practice wouldn't hurt. Sheena's arm tightens around Suki's shoulders again.]

You're not by yourself, okay?

April 16th - action;

[ex_tessen852]

Yeah... I might forget though.

April 16th - action;

[corrinesbell]

Forget what? That you don't live all alone around here? I'll just have to make a bigger mess then.

[Maybe there're other things she can do, but right now she's trying for a smile.]

How about this, though - if I see one of your friends, I'll tell them you're doing okay if they ask. And if, y'know, it's still true.

April 16th - action;

[ex_tessen852]

Yeah. That would be great actually.

I thought this place was going to be so much different.

April 16th - action;

[corrinesbell]

What'd you think? After somebody explained it to you, anyway.

April 16th - action;

[ex_tessen852]

I knew it was going to be hard, but I thought it was going to be fighting, almost dying, those things. [Aka things she's used to.] I didn't think I lose one of the most important relationships I have.

April 16th - action;

[corrinesbell]

[Sheena is of the opinion that dying is worse than losing someone you love though they live.]

Things might change. You kinda never know.

April 16th - action;

[ex_tessen852]

I don't know. I don't know if I care anymore.

April 16th - action;

[corrinesbell]

It'll get better. I promise.

[It isn't like her - anymore - to make promises much, let alone ones she might not be able to see through to a conclusion. This one means a lot.]

April 16th - action;

[ex_tessen852]

I really hope so, Sheena. I really do.

April 16th - action;

[corrinesbell]

Just keep hoping then.

[And the awareness that they're sitting by the front door on the floor creeps back in. Sheena looks around, wondering if Suki even knows where they are.]

Want some tea? Or I think we also have hot chocolate, but it's kinda warm for that.