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87. Drenched [voice/action]

Another thunderstorm. All this rain's getting annoying. [and it makes her think of her first week or so in Luceti. Especially with the two-year mark so close for her] There's so many people here now we'd be totally stuck if another flood happened. And that's on top of a lot of other stuff. It's been too long for some of this to still be going on.
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Any luck?
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There's something I wanna talk to you about.
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[and if you happen to be walking around on this rainy day, you might spot a ninja who is out training anyway]

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Yeah, and before that he was so depressed he wasn't eating or anything. Now he's Ratatosk.

...I don't know what to do.

He needs to come to terms with this. But in the state that he's allowed himself to reach, it's not something he really wants to do.

Got any ideas?

... For what, exactly?

...For what to do.

... I'm not certain. Both Emil and Ratatosk are in denial, which isn't helping anything.

I don't think Ratatosk is denying anything. He's thrilled.

It's a false thrill. He honestly doesn't understand what it means.

It means Emil gave up.

Emil did give up, but it doesn't mean he wins. It's not a competition, which is something he's failing to process due to his own ego, among other things.

So then what is it?

It's ... complicated. I'm not certain I can explain it, especially at this stage. Regal might be able to answer a little better, having traveled with him.

But you've gotta have some kinda theory. I wanna hear it.

Hm. What do you know already of Ratatosk and Emil's connection?

Is my answer gonna change what you tell me, or something?

It would help me explain better if I had an idea of what your understanding was.

...Emil's not really...he's really Ratatosk. A Summon Spirit.

That's right. Emil is... a front for Ratatosk. But Ratatosk himself doesn't understand the meaning of it, putting more faith into his physical strength than emotional "weaknesses". Their different perspectives act as a form of balance, but they lack the ability to cooperate properly, either due to fear, or denial, or something else altogether.

...So he doesn't know he's faking someone else.

He hasn't accepted that he is Emil. Or rather... that Emil is an extension of himself.

The emotions he doesn't wanna have, or something, right?

Something along those lines, in any case.

Then why aren't they just hidden all the time?

The situation is a little more complicated than just needing to hide emotions. From my understanding, Emil... had a lot to adapt to. Surely, if he were Ratatosk the entire time, he wouldn't have been able to make any of the connections that he has. It's more of a survival mechanism. Whether this happened willingly or unwillingly... it is unlikely that he remembers, and surely would not accept the ideas if we presented them to him.

I wasn't gonna tell him. I just...hate seeing this happen to him.

[and it is really frustrating. It's not like Richter is dead. He needs to get over it just a little]

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wise_maiden - 2009-10-25 06:15 (UTC) - Expand

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