It feels like a lot has changed for me since we've been sent out of Aselia. My state of mind... my resolve. People have called me optimistic, which is also a change. My mind is more open now than it ever has been.

And yet...

There is always that lingering uncertainty. Whether or not the people we have allowed ourselves to become close to will be here in the morning. Whether or not we'll remember what we've learned here if we turn out not to be here, ourselves... it makes me want to close myself off even more, sometimes. It's frightening to wake up to. It's foolish of me to let myself become paralyzed by these thoughts.